Existence-is-Futile

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im that kid that you see as naive you don't need me you're free but you want me to be there for you if you want to and what do i get hundred reasons and you don't even sweat on the big things the stories i'm raging and roaring you're whoring yourself out again and its boring i'm boring a hole to the life you uphold got a role so i'll play it but this game i'm saying its over i don't need your silence its over one more reason i'm writing its over show me a feeling or i'm right its over not gonna roll its a no go its over i got a feeling you'll give up its over not gonna get with this get up its over show me you're reeling you're no

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I'm okay for now and I'm standing tall but in a second I'm backed up against the wall in my head my back arches but my head just falls and my shoulders drop and my thoughts hit the floor/ you glance across the room and my mouth creases up in a way it gives away and you give me that look the smile slips down and I'm on one foot my fingernails click, I say I'm okay, but/ You know it's not true, you can see right through me peel back a smile and my eyes look roomy it's not quite a lie, but it's not quite true we'll drop it for tonight and I'll call another truce/ I'm tired of the way you think I'm being obtuse and the only thin

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But then I think this pen and ink wants to write the ins and outs of my mind and then i find the final line why is it then that I'm not fine? I write about falling and how it's different for me than you but the truth it's not a hard line and all in all my life's quite fine it isn't perfect, but then I suspect, a million people have it worse than I. -------------- Every night I do it. I chew on thoughts and bury words squashing sentences at the bottom of the bright ideas pile the light switch is on but every bulb's blown I repeat and repeat and repeat scrap replay, replay rethink, remember it changes and I forget

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Quiet

It's quiet. It's quiet and im still emptied but soft I feel fleshy and light. I can feel every ounce of me wiegh down as I float and the memory of words I can't move and the past is immovable but it's quiet cotton soft quiet. it's light. In the dark when I close my eyes in floods light. a kiss of my eyelids im holding no pictures just light and quiet and calm. I know no more now than i knew can't solve and can't prove but the light and the quiet the soft and the new the good and the hope these might carry me through.

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It's bright and it's broken it's flickering, rusted the heart of a creature I couldn't have trusted for fear or for hunger of minor disaster a flesh that's quite warm yet it's lacking in lustre im flustered must muster must muster a blister of truth or a wrinkle of trust. It's dark and it's dusty quite damp, and encrusted with scars and a venom that's destined to break it and fuelled with a stream of casual acquaintances mind that knows need but not how to relate and i'm broken must hope I must hope for a reason a sign that it's right lest we fall with the seasons, and falling is reason enough.

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Paranoia

paranoia paranoia pleased to meet you paranoia the infection soul destroyer paranoia paranoia shes a dancer paranoia give a chance of paranoia she'll destroy you she'll destory you paranoia paranoia catch an eye and paranoia trace a line and paranoia catch it wandering on out and to the side its paranoia i don't know you paranoia hasn't told you paranoia she's a weapon she's a snake and she's a soldier paranoia she'll unfold you and remove you paranoia paranoia she'll be cold and feign a smoothness paranoia pranoia all a tactical maneuver paranoia paranoia hasn't told you all the moves and paranoi

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Sick of my sickness with the language barrier find a new character and my thoughts might carry her stuck on the crest of my friccative wave I need a new brain hole, and a new wave to save me/ sick of my sickness and I can't get rid burn a hole in my head when I'm flicking eyelids clicking my fingers and I'm blaming the timezones ticking the clock off ignore the power that the hands hold/ sick of my apathy and of being on a downturn pissing them off with the message that my frown earns forgetting that faces have a language of their own well versed and rehearsed there, I'm holding on, though/ Sick of my sickness with the braindead b

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June 2
United Kingdom
Deviant for 17 years
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College.
Have deformed feet.
Yes I do 'liek mudkips'.
Old school cartoons kick ass.
The eighties were pretty epic.
Aaaand..Nope - at least I don't think so..O_O//O_< *twitch*

Current Residence: #16
Favourite photographer: ^^
Favourite style of art: yeah, right.
Shell of choice: flour, starch, syrup, wax and colour. (mmmm..smarties :D)
Skin of choice: the one on top of soup, It always tastes better.
Favourite cartoon character: CandyxCorex
Personal Quote: What? *inserttardfaceherecompletewithjustahintofdrool.*

Favourite Visual Artist

you. (Unless you're really crap in which case, sorry dude).

Favourite Movies

zombieland/a clockwork orange/the one whith the thing where the thing did the thing to get the thing

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

http://www.last.fm/user/FutileExistence

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Favourite Games

Dog fighting. (me n mine..not an organised bettin shop. in my room. Fridays. At 9...O_o)

Tools of the Trade

Uhh..it takes a winch to get me out of bed, I guess ._.

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art/psych/art/you/art

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Existence-is-Futile

Sep 4, 2013

Publish?

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If I published some poetry, would you read it? Does anyone ever reeeeally read modern poetry without being in a classroom? *tickticktick*

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Existence-is-Futile

Dec 20, 2011

Merry Xmas: birth of a 'jilallawillion'

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CHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMASCHRISTMAS :eager: So first of all, I don't know if I mentioned it's all christmassy? IT IS. ~christmastreeplz (https://www.deviantart.com/christmastreeplz):star::iconpresentplz::star::iconchristmastreeplz: Anyway I thought I'd say hi and :wave: and call you all awesome. Have an awesome christmas and feel free to shout things at me whilst I'm somewhere near to a Mac and an internet connection! (No hurling sheep, though) In other news, despite my inactivity for sooooooooooo long, Simanion (https://www.deviantart.com/simanion):iconsimanion: decided for reasons beyond my grasp to give me a yearlong premium subscrip

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Existence-is-Futile

Aug 27, 2011

@_@

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HOLYSHOESTHERESSOMETHINGINTHECORNEROFMYGODDAMNPAGECREEPINGMETHEHELLOUTNOWSAVEYOURSEL-oh. False alarm.. ..Just my face. Carry on. :ashamed:

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MEIZR

Mar 16, 2013

Heyo! I hav'ent really been on the boards for a few years and am just now getting back into the slimey swing of things! How have you been? digging your gallery, do you have a tumblr?