Teach me something, college - NOOOOOOOOWWW! >_<

For the past however many years chronic migranes and the permenant panda rings around my eyes have pretty much made sure of that; but what makes it worse is that I seem to spend my life striving to achieve goals that don't belong to me - that's what the past five years were and now..

Now I just realised that I enrolled into another two years of doing JUST THAT...Yeah, umm...

...Yeah.

Erm. So, now I'm gonna spend those two years working my arse off to make it look like I'm a capable person with great job prospects, and all the while I'll be neglecting everything that I really want to do (whatever that ACTUALLY is ) because I'm too lazy or incapable or tired or WHATEVER the hell it is in me that stops me from wanting to do anything, to bother.

sigh. C'est la vie, right.

Anyway - umm - good luck with all the post summer workload and stuff.. Keep working, bla bla yadda yadda.

x

You can read all of the semi-depressing stuff later - but for now - get this!!!
I'm going to see Tim Minchin tomorrow! Happyhappyhappy ^__^ Thanks to a friend and the misfortune of her family () me and my sister got two spare tickets to his 'Ready for this?' tour, so we're off to Salford tomorrow night! Well - there's my bit of good news for the week!


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So summer is pretty chilled out for me so far - not long left though :/
Roll on college I guess
As usual, I haven't drawn a much as I PROMISED I would..I would never accept my own word - seriously. It's never going to happen HOWEVER. (I hope) I should be getting my school work back sometime this month, maybe around results day, So hopefully lots of work and cheering to come! Then I can finally be rid of the red dragon. (Don't ask ¬_¬

Umm.. Nathan Edward Waine still remains the illusive child to me - DEFINATELY going to see him this weekend (but you know what I said about accepting my word) so maybe I'll take a picture and draw him? (See there was a reason for the rambling - you get a picture out of it! ..maybe..)

Also - that defeatist feeling..is still there. It's still a big fat wall, and as of yet - I'm sat here with neither a chisel to knock out the bricks, or the will to live ): The good thing is - I literally HAVE to draw for college, so there WILL be 'something' to see eventually - but at the moment, I'm filling the artist block with a shit load of Norwegian words and phrases xD I came to the conclusion that I should probably learn some if I'm gonna go there next year! Agagin - not just rambling..I'm getting a little bit of inspiration from all this learning, so maybe a ..picture??

Umm.. yeah.. *shrug* ..

Yeah - incase you hadn't noticed the rediculous tanlines and air of sweat following us all around - It's summer!!

I'm gonna make the most of summer and draw as much as I can - hopefully practise at least - so you may actually see something new coming your way soon - plus I may be able to get my school projects back sometime soon. Fun for all the family!

Have fun, make art - be happy

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New pictures are coming changes (eg. my icon) have and will be made - be ready


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I now have a new addition to the changes for this summer - and to the family! A little brother!!
I can't wait to see him in a few weeks



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I'm getting to be extremely defeatist. Really. It's fucking annoying. ¬_¬
The thing is, I just seem to be sitting for an hour, reading tutorials, and then drawing an outline that takes another hour to draw and just ends up looking like shit - there's just no point building on something that looks like shit to start with.
When it seems like you're learning nothing from all of the practise - where do you go from there?

So now I feel a little cappy..

:/


On the other hand - my brother has a name. Nathan Edward Waine. Still not seen him yet..